We're baaaaaack!!!!!

Let's just dive in shall we?

Fairly recently I got granted with some amazing blessings and along with it a lot of complaining, on my part, to the person that means the most to me. How silly. I know exactly what I should be doing and have yet to make the effort. O.K. You are all probably super confused right now. So lets get real. Wait for it. Keep waiting. I am going to get really real with you right now so be ready :)

After having moved home to Alaska for four months I prayed for several things to happen in my life once I moved back to Utah. I got Every.Single.Thing granted to me that I had prayed for. Don't get me wrong. I have offered up many prayers full of gratitude.I don't remember which prophet asked us why it is the people that we love most and are closest to us that we also hurt the most. I have been such a mess the last week. Like SUPER emotional and I am humble enough to say, as a woman, I have been freaking CRAZY! As we all are sometimes. It is OK to have some off days. Or in my case, an entire week. Which I KNOW will turn into a month if I do not change my attitude right now.

It is SO important to take a step back and check who we are affecting though. My poor boyfriend, who is so incredibly sweet and understanding with me, has been the one to take the heat of my crazy. That is the LAST person I ever want to hurt or be impatient with. It took be until, just about 30 mins ago when I texted my sisters, to realize what I needed to do. My best friend here in Utah, Mel, needed me. And I felt needed! It took all of 5 minutes to help her but the spirit and feeling I got afterwards slapped me back into reality to realize what I have in life. Little acts of service or just pure love really does the heart and soul some good.

This experience has changed my perspective in trying to become the person I was on my mission-loving and all about serving and staying as close to my Savior as I possibly can. And then taking that love I feel from Him and showering it over everyone around me. Especially those I care most about. I love my Sweet amazing boyfriend. I love my best friends. I love my family. And I LOVE my Savior. I hope that this can bring you some encouragement that we are all a little crazy sometimes. But it is so important to recognize the hand of God in our lives. He didn't have to bless me with someone in need. But He did. And I am so grateful for it.